Star crossed lovers | Our first date

Natalie and I travelled into town for a meal before meeting up with Jake, ready to go ice skating. All I can remember was being so nervous! We were sat talking about how we thought it'd go and whether I actually had a chance with this guy ...I mean, he could have had any girl he wanted. And I'm sure there were plenty of girls that wouldn't mind him choosing them. I was so lucky, but this was pressure that I could do without, all I was thinking was: "what if he thinks I'm ugly?", "what if he doesn't actually like me?", "what if my shyness puts him off?" I couldn't believe what was happening!

We'd finished our meal and started heading towards the ice arena when we bumped into one of Natalie's mates. We told him how nervous we were and that we were about to go and meet Jake Walker for the first time. He was so sweet, he reassured me that Jake was a nice guy and that we'd have a great time (I think he knew him through football or something). I took a massive sigh of relief, but my belly was still filled with butterflies.

We go to the fountain (where we had planned to meet up) but there was no sign, so we decided to take a very slow walk through the shops opposite. I was shaking. I had never been this nervous before. I got a text as we got to the back of the store, saying that he was there, asking where we were. This was it ...I was finally going to meet him. It took us five minutes to get to the front of the shop -the people behind us must have been getting so frustrated as we took fairy steps the whole way through.

He was stood there on the opposite side of the fountain, with his back to us. It was just like the scene in Titanic where Jack was stood, suited and booted by the stairs waiting for Rose. Although I'm sure Rose wasn't as nervous as I was. 

Walking to the ice arena was so awkward. No one spoke. Natalie had asked a few questions, like if Jake had ever skated before but apart from that it was silent. I can remember standing in the queue for the hire skates while Natalie was waiting on the bench. She was looking over at me, telling me to talk but I was far too nearvous. Ice skating was the perfect place for a first date -the music was that loud that awkward silences were never truly silent and if I had said something stupid, he probably wouldn't have heard it anyway. 

The date was going great. Natalie had skated off on her own while Jake and I trailed behind holding hands. We were both as bad as each other. It was perfect ...until half of my year turned up. There was about ten of the most popular kids from school. I wad so scared that Jake was going to leave me to go and skate with them. We skated around a few more times before getting off to say hello. I kept a tight grasp of Jakes hand, terrified that he was going to go off with one of the other girls. We stood talking for a while before going back on the ice. Throughout the whole date, he hadn't let go of my hand once. It was so cute. 

Jake gave us both a lift home. Natalie first, then me. We had arrived outside house -the time had come ...was there going to be a kiss or would it just be another awkward moment? I was so nervous. He pulled up, turn the engine off and turned to face me. My heart was beating so fast. He leaned over to say thankyou with a goodbye kiss. It was probably the most awkward first kiss, but who cares? ...I just kissed Jake Walker!

Star crossed lovers | Our first Valentines Day

Until now, Valentines Day was just another day. But not anymore ...it actually meant something. It was a day for celebrating your love with that one person you were going to spend the rest of your life with. Showing them off to he world. And that's what he did. Jake spoilt me. 

I was rushing around making sure everything was perfect. I had got Jake a mini canvas and a mug filled with the love heart sweets that each had their own messages. I thought it was perfect. There was one problem though. Jake doesn't like sweets.  It was only a few months ago that he told me that it was actually Jordi that ate the mug full of sweets. I was mortified. How did I not know that he didn't like them. I hadn't even considered them as 'sweets'. Now not only did Jake not get the sweets I'd got but he couldn't use the mug ...it was contaminated. I am such an awful girlfriend.

Needles to say, Jake's plans for Valentines Day were much better. He had originally told me that he hadn't got me anything because he couldn't afford it and that he felt terrible. I was half expecting him to turn up with something anyway but he was true to his word and hadn't got me anything. When we got to his, I was greeting with the sound of music. I could hear Celine Dion, 'My heart will go on' playing in the background. Titanic was our favourite film so I guess this had become "our song". As I walked upstairs to try and find where it was coming from Jake put his hands over my eyes and walked me into his bedroom. It was gorgeous. He had laid rose petals on the floor, making a love heart with my initials in the middle (later I discovered that Jordi had helped with that bit as Jake's attempt was terrible, but it's the thought that counts). On his bed sat a huge me to you bear, a box and a massive bunch of roses (minus the one that was scattered on the floor of course). As I looked closer I noticed that around the teddy's neck was a piece of ribbon acting as a necklace with a pandora charm threaded through. I was over the moon. It was perfect. 

Star crossed lovers | nye

It was only a few minutes after being dropped off when I got the sweetest text off Jake. He told me how perfect the date was and how proud he was to be 'holding hands with the most beautiful girl on the ice with all the other guys staring in jealousy' ...it put the biggest smile on my face. I was sat blushing at my phone like a little kid. I was right, he did like me. What had I done to deserve this?! 

The conversation went on, soppy text after soppy text until he asked to see me again. Tomorrow was New Year's Eve so what better to do than go to the cinema to see New Year's Eve (ironic, I know). It wasn't the best film in the world ...well what I saw of it anyway! We spent most of the film kissing on the back row. Come to think of it, we spent the whole day kissing. It was official. There was definitely feelings there. 

Jake had asked me to go back to his after to watch a few films and go into the new year with him. I hadn't told my parent about him yet with it being early days still so when I asked if I could go back to his, of course they said no. But me being me, I went anyway. I didn't want Jake to think I wasn't interested. 

I was so nearvous to begin with. I was just sat at the end of his bed watching tele. He was sat the other end on his phone, texting away. There was just one thought rubbing through my mind ...'who was he texting?' I got if in my head that he was talking to someone else. Someone better. But to my surprise, just as he put his phone down, mine went off. It was him. I received the sweetest text, it went something like this: "I'm really sorry but I've got something to tell you. I've got a beautiful, blonde sat at the end of my bed and I think I've fallen for her..." When I started reading, my heart sank. I was right, there was someone else. But as I read on, I realised that this 'other girl' was me. I was over the moon. 

I had to be home by eleven o' clock so I couldn't actually spend New Years with Jake but we made our resalutions early. Jake told me he only had one resalution and that he planned on sticking to it. He told me that he would have the most amazing and beautiful girlfriend ever. It was official. We were now boyfriend and girlfriend. 

Star crossed lovers | The start of a new chapter

For this series of blog posts, we will be going back in time, reliving our story, year by year.

It all started in 2011 when I made the leap of faith to add Jake Walker (the gorgeous elder brother of Jordi and Ryan) on BBM -I know , I know... Not very romantic or traditional but what can I do in today's day and age? Anyway, we spoke for a few months, getting to know each other and become great friends. There was no question about it, I had developed strong feelings for the guy. He was perfect.

It was around Christmas time that I realised he liked me back and we began to speak more and more. Things were going great. There was just one problem ...I was so shy around people as it was, let alone a boy! Jake had tried to meet up a few times (nothing too special, just going for a walk) but I came up with every excuse possible to avoid the awkward situations I may face -after all, I didn't want to ruin what we had!

I finally gave in when he suggested going ice skating one Saturday (mainly because it meant I could drag my friend, Natalie along too. At least then I wouldn't feel so nervous!)